Cursed or is it just meant to be?

Disclaimer : Every characters, places and everything is just plainly made up for this story. It is just a story that I worked up for some time. Hoping to get some feedbacks from all you guys!

Jay was in ecstatic mood that day. It was his first day of work and he was excited. Not long after, it was lunch time so he rushed off to the canteen with his new met friends/colleagues lining up to pay when his eyes caught a rare sight of attraction.

1 look and he felt the blood rush to his head, heavy and fast heart beats, goosebumps, and sudden heat. He wanted to turn away before he gets a slap but the weirdest thing happened.

"Hey there, u must be new here. Am Beth!"

"*Stuttering* H-hey, Jay here. Nice to meet you!"

Being just out of relationship, Jay was in a fragile state hence he tried his level best to keep his cool. His past relationship which lasted just over 3 years, was still fresh in his memories and ever since he never felt this kind of strong attraction before.

Seeing Jay talking to this hot chick, all his friends started to tease him. Hearing it, his heart started to race faster and he could feel his face getting hotter and hotter.

"OMG! Don't tell me you are blushing dude!" said 1 of his friend. Jay of course never told them about his past and judging from his never depleting hyper-ness and smile on his face, everyone thought that he was actually a player!

Jay on the other hand was actually trying his level best to contain his feelings. So the rest of the day just went away with Jay dying to see his new found angel again. Luck wasn't on his side at least that day so he just left it to pass.

So day after day he was trying to look for the same eyes that caught him but never managed to get any luck till the 4th day when he saw her again! She was with her friends lining up to pay laughing happily. That made his day as that was what he longing for! Just to see her! Trying not to look too obvious, he always tried to just steal a peak and keeping his mouth busy at the same time with his friends.

This continued on for awhile until 1 day he bumped into her alone. Somehow working up his courage, he stops her.

"Hey, which department are you in? How was your day so far?"
"Not bad, am for sales team Jay. Day is boring with never ending training." said Beth with a smile.

Jay suddenly realized what a fool he was as he actually thought that she was his senior! Now that he knew she was actually part of the sales team, he knew he had to do something so that he could have some reason to see her again.

With a very obvious hesitant tone, "Hey mind if I have your number? Since after this we might not see each other, at least we could keep in touch...." Feeling his whole body shaky, and blood starting to rush through the veins, he waited for the "NO" word.

"Sure! Why don't you take mind and I will text you." said Beth. Seeing both exchanging numbers, all of Jay's friends were very jealous of him. They started to tease him even more and that's when his phone went off! Everyone jumped to see the text and started off with a small celebration to see the text from Beth.

That night they text each other and Jay could not hide his joy as he was having trouble sleeping and all. He had no idea that it would only last for day.

The next day, Jay starting his test calls as he was a call center agent, was sitting in his table went he received a text from Beth saying she saw him. So being excited and witty, he replied daring Beth to come over and say Hi to him. Little he thought that she would actually turn up at his table with the rest of his team looking at him!

That was the cue, he thought but as the day went by he realized Beth sounded a little distressed. Worried, he wanted to know what was the reason just to find out that Beth was actually is leaving to Melbourne the next day as that's where she was placed.

A text came in asking him what took him so long to get Beth's number. That was a slap to his conscious and that was not the end of it. He felt he had already wasted precious time which he could have actually used to create good memories.

Then he finds out that Beth was actually married with a daughter of 2 years and half! That broke his heart but he decided to just let everything go by the flow itself so he kept it within himself. He was dying to have some time with Beth. He ended his shift 5 hours earlier but decided to wait till Beth's done with hers.

It was almost 8pm and they met. He could feel the strong hunch that Beth had fallen for him, but the fact that she was married and all scared him. After having a short conversation, they parted ways with Jay in a very confused state.

That night, Beth called Jay.

"Hey, now that you know tomorrow I am leaving, would you come visit me if I asked you to?"

Jay was waiting for that but he was torn apart with mixed feelings. He wanted so badly to be with Beth but she was someone else's. Yet still thinking that he ain't gonna throw his chance away, he makes a desperate trip to visit Beth.

Seeing her without make up for the 1st time made things harder for Jay. He felt he has met his match finally but should he be doing what he is doing? That was his thought. He wants but he can't. So trying not to waste much time, he decided to take her out instead. So..................

That would be it for now. I believe this is quite long enough that I decided to make it to part posts. =)

And really sorry if I had cut short you guys of excitement guys. Don't worry the best part of the story is yet to come! Trust me!

Psst : Please don't mind those pics. They might not suite the moment for that particular part.

Don't forget to leave your comments guys! Looking forward for it as I would love to improve on my writing skills as I progress.

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life

Glad that I actually found some space of time to talk about this. At a tender age of 13 I felt that it was rare that teenagers feel all alone though being surrounded by their friends.

I was an emo kid just by the look because I was very good in hiding my emotions. Due to that people always thought that I was "hyper" kid and the "happy go lucky" type hence people never really bothered about how I felt. So sometimes I tend to talk to myself about things that bother me so much since I always kept them within me.

Yea felt as if I had a real friend but I was sane enough to know that it was all my imagination. However things doesn't really help much and after advice from various random people, I decided to open up. Well I used to have scars on me, that's how these few people realized. During those times I felt so pissed to be such a phailure! 

Being told that your an emotional person, weak in heart, hurting ur ownself and blah blah ain't nice to hear. I never liked it hence I changed once more. But life would never be easy for those meant for greater things in life, right? Well of course, this is proved based on the histories and not self praised. 

As things went by I certainly hit my rock bottom phase in my life. I've faced a few types of phailures and I think among all those, this was the worst. Because I really didn't know what to do. Standing on top of building rooftops, with a few bottles of beers around, anything can happen from there. Of course am not attempting to die or anything just sitting there to enjoy the view, but during those times is when these thoughts came flooding.

 

At it was then when the magical things happened. I had someone to share my feelings, pains with. Guys have feelings to, and they would want to be treated the same way you girls would like us to treat you to. So be nice when you sense ur partner is troubled yea! 

So last but not least, life is not something that you can waste just like that. Ending your own life never prove anything expect stupidity and coward-ness. Maybe some might think otherwise. Think about it for a moment, you could always have a chance to turn things around whilst your still alive but once your gone, that's the end. Wasted, no?

These cartoon images are certainly cute. And they are meant to make u smile. But at the same think, take a minute to think carefully about why is there a need to end your life as well. So just before I end, I would love to dedicate this song " When your gone - Avril Lavigne" to everyone who have lost someone dear to them in any ways. 

Appreciate life and it will appreciate you back. Make sure you be there for those who are fragile and open up when you feel like your suffocating! Life is too precious to throw it away! 

Live on so that you will be able to read my blog continually! Just joking! *grin* Next stop would be Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.