Lonely~

Well 1st I came across this lyrics on my ex's twitter then I thought it seemed nice so checked out that song and kinda got hooked up to it. But then it hit me that I actually had more than enough reasons to be attached to this song.

Hehehe... no details would be uncovered here... =P

Anyways here is the video of the song and lyrics with the translation below the vid! Listen and enjoy guys!!




[CL] 지금 내가 하는 얘기 널 아프게 할지 몰라
아마 날 죽도록 미워하게 될꺼야

[민지] 내가 예전 같지 않다던 네 말 모두 틀린 말은 아니야
나도 변해버린 내가 낯 설기만해

[다라] 너무 착한 넌데 넌 그대로인데 오

[CL] I don’t know I don’t know내가 왜 이러는지

[다라] 그토록 사랑했는데 넌 여기 있는데 오

[민지] I don’t know

[다라] 이제 날 찾고 싶어

[봄] Baby I’m sorry 너와 있어도 난 Lonely사랑하긴 내가 부족한가봐 이런 못난 날 용서해

[민지] I’m sorry 이게 너와 나의 Story사랑이란 내겐 과분한가봐 네 곁에 있어도
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[봄] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL] 네가 잘못한게 아냐 내가 이상한거야
이미 오래 전부터 난 준비 했나봐 이별을

[봄] 정말 잘해주고 싶었는데 하필 사랑 앞에서는 왜
이렇게 한없이 작아지고 외로운지

[다라] 너무 착한 넌데 넌 그대로인데 오

[CL] I don’t know I don’t know내가 왜 이러는지

[다라] 그토록 사랑했는데 넌 여기 있는데 오

[CL] I don’t know

[다라] 이제 날 찾고 싶어

[CL] Baby I’m sorry 너와 있어도 난 Lonely사랑하긴 내가 부족한가봐 이런 못난 날 용서해

[민지] I’m sorry 이게 너와 나의 Story사랑이란 내겐 과분한가봐 네 곁에 있어도
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[민지] Cuz I’m just another girl이 밤이 외로워 난
[봄] 더는 견딜 수 없어 Good bye

[다라] Cuz I’m just another girl
[CL] 너무나 외로워
[봄] 지금 네 곁에 있어도
Baby I’m so lonely

[민지] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely




Translation
[CL]
The words I'm saying right now, I don't know if they'll hurt you
They'll probably make you hate me forever

[MINZY]
You, saying that I'm not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue
This changed me is a stranger to myself as well

[DARA]
You are so kind but
That's the way you are but oh

[CL] I don't know I don't know
Why I am like this
[DARA] We were so in love, and you're here now but oh
[MINZY] I don't know
[DARA] I want to find myself now

[BOM]
Baby I'm sorry, even when I'm with you, I'm Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person I am

[MINZY]
I'm sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I'm by your side

Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[BOM]
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL]
You didn't do anything wrong, I'm the strange one
It seems I've already been prepared long ago, for our breakup

[BOM]
I really wanted to treat you well, out of all the times, why is it when I'm confronted by love
I am shrinking away & am lonely endlessly

[DARA]
You are so kind but
That's the way you are but oh

[CL]
I don't know I don't know
Why I am like this

[DARA] We were so in love, and you're here now but oh
[CL] I don't know
[DARA] I want to find myself now

[CL]
Baby I'm sorry, even when I'm with you, I'm Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person I am

[MINZY]
I'm sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I'm by your side

Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL]
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[MINZY]
Cuz I'm just another girl
This night is lonely, I

[BOM] Can't take any more, Good bye
[DARA] Cuz I'm just another girl
[CL] I'm so lonely
[BOM] Even though I'm by your side right now
Baby I’m so lonely

[MINZY] Lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely




Hope u guys love this song. I am not much of a youtube junkie but through this song, i came across a few nice songs too. Soon when I've got more time I would certainly put it all up together for you guys to enjoy!!

Day 10 - Discuss your first love and kiss

Wow... What a topic! Now it got me going back digging through tons and tons of memories trying to remember them. Think I can remember tiny bity stuff about my 1st experiences though. *chuckles*

If I ain't mistaken, my 1st love would be someone I would call as "Black Rose" with whom I fell in love with at 1st sight. I am a shy person when it comes to love and all. *blush* I think I was about 11 years old when it happened when I 1st laid my eyes on her. Gosh I still have those goosebumps!! LOL

We were from 2 different family background and basically our parents were not exactly friends but rivals. Sounds like a tragic story ? Anyways, since I saw her, I think I went totally "goo goo gaa gaa" over her. Anything I did, didn't really go well due to my new found feelings. I got my 1st chance to talk to her just a couple of weeks later where there was some classical dance show which we went to watch.

Surprisingly enough, her seat and mine were next to each other. So I took that chance to talk to her and got to know her. Think a few days later we both got hooked up with each other. Though I honestly can't remember how long it lasted, it was a great relationship. I know at 11 years old, what can would I know about love?

But that particular relationship actually thought me a lot about how to love a person. The sad thing is that I never learned how to love a person enough as whenever I fell, I fell too deep. The deeper you fall, the deeper the scar they say. Though I've moved on from so many relationships, I still carry the good memories and the scars along the way. Tried to forget but history just kept repeating itself on me that I gave up trying to forget.


Moving onto my 1st kiss experience, I think I got my 1st kiss under a full moon at exactly 12am of my birthday 14th February. The 1st and last valentines day that I ever got to celebrate. Been wanting to celebrate it so badly with that special someone but it just never seemed to happen. Hoped and got hurt.

Ish, keep getting to the wrong side. *face palm*

I remember we were counting down for my birthday under the full moon, at the highest hill nearby a coastal highway. There was a shooting star exactly few seconds before 12am so being the young and silly kid, I closed my eyes making my wish. Halfway through my wish, I got my 1st kiss and birthday wish.

I don't know if it was a curse or she wished that I would not celebrate valentines with anyone else, things never worked out for any other valentines days ever since. It's been 8 years since. Somehow we were forced to break up when she moved away all of sudden. That was the last I ever saw nor heard from her. Wonderful girl she was.

Hmm... Did I cover the topic? Hehehe... Not gonna give out too much details of course! =P  Now don't you all think too far yea.... Fortunately enough I got to write so soon. Though I would have loved to write about something else, since I've been taking forever to finish this thought I'd go on with this challenge 1st.

Since this mean there is more stories are coming by, stay tuned guys!! Thanks for the support once again! *bows* Signing out for today.

What are words~

I think most of the people would already know when you saw the title of what this post all means. Yes Chris Mendoza took me away with this song. Before I say more about the song, I shall share a little story about this wonderful song 1st.



At the heart of "What Are Words" are lyrics inspired by things Chris Medina said and did during the audition and Hollywood week portions of the show. When Chris Medina sings "what kind of guy would I be/if I was to leave when you need me most," that lyric came straight from his own mouth when describing his dedication to helping his fiance Juliana overcome the injuries sustained in her car accident.

The story of this song as touching as the lyrics itself, proves that pure LOVE still exist! I won't hide how much this song touched my soul. It's just wonderfully beautiful. What more can one do to express the love they have for that 1 person? Well this song was written inspired by his fiancee's story, he recorded it few days after his elimination from American Idol 10.

Ok am done with my blah's for now. Enjoy the song people!



Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

When Life Comes....

I actually saw this in my good friend's faceboook. I think he wrote this for his girlfriend or something but I really felt that this note was really awesome! I actually wanted to share it here but I never really had much chance to do so with my time getting screwed up recently.

Thomaz Chee, sorry and thanks I am stealing ur post man! =)

Two best friends sat on top of a hill.

It was time to say goodbye.

They swore they’d be best friends forever. Nothing more, nothing less.

They wrote their promises on separate papers and swore they would read each others on one of their wedding day.

The girl wrote:

I can’t promise that I won’t fall in love with you because i did.

I can’t promise that we’d only be best friends because i want us to be more.

I can’t promise I’ll walk down the aisle with someone else because i want to be your bride…

The guy wrote:

I promise i won’t fall in love with you

I promise we’d only be best friends, nothing more.

I promise I’ll walk down the aisle with someone else as my bride…

10 years later and it was the girl’s wedding day. The car just arrived at the church. Everyone was waiting for her to come out but she was reading a certain letter. She sighed and cried softly.

She walked down the aisle and arrived at the altar. She linked her hand with her groom and cried softly. She was getting married to the man of her dreams. Her best friend.

“Are you ok?” The groom asked.

“I just read your promise letter.” The girl said.

“You like it?” He asked softly.

“I love it!” The girl smiled.

TRUTH: Right at the bottom of the boy’s letter was a small message.

“These are the promises i know I’ll break. I love you.”

I really think that this post is really cute and nice! Because I would love to have my best friend be my best partner because I think that would be the best relationship ever! But I realized people are often scared of ruining the friendship that they share but honestly, if you ask me, I'd say that's the dumbest thing one could actually do! 

 

Regardless whatever people say, for me the best relationship is the 1 that you share with your bestie! Everytime I love someone, I take them as my bestfriend 1st! That's how I prefer it and if things doesn't work out, then I can still keep them because FRIENDSHIP is a bond that doesn't relate to romance! If a person is matured enough to understand this, they would not need to worry about ruining the friendship at all! 

Just my opinion. =) 

Sorry haven't been updating much. Been overly busy recently but I see that the traffic been consistent. Always grateful to my readers! Love you all!

Cursed or is it just meant to be?

Disclaimer : Every characters, places and everything is just plainly made up for this story. It is just a story that I worked up for some time. Hoping to get some feedbacks from all you guys!

Jay was in ecstatic mood that day. It was his first day of work and he was excited. Not long after, it was lunch time so he rushed off to the canteen with his new met friends/colleagues lining up to pay when his eyes caught a rare sight of attraction.

1 look and he felt the blood rush to his head, heavy and fast heart beats, goosebumps, and sudden heat. He wanted to turn away before he gets a slap but the weirdest thing happened.

"Hey there, u must be new here. Am Beth!"

"*Stuttering* H-hey, Jay here. Nice to meet you!"

Being just out of relationship, Jay was in a fragile state hence he tried his level best to keep his cool. His past relationship which lasted just over 3 years, was still fresh in his memories and ever since he never felt this kind of strong attraction before.

Seeing Jay talking to this hot chick, all his friends started to tease him. Hearing it, his heart started to race faster and he could feel his face getting hotter and hotter.

"OMG! Don't tell me you are blushing dude!" said 1 of his friend. Jay of course never told them about his past and judging from his never depleting hyper-ness and smile on his face, everyone thought that he was actually a player!

Jay on the other hand was actually trying his level best to contain his feelings. So the rest of the day just went away with Jay dying to see his new found angel again. Luck wasn't on his side at least that day so he just left it to pass.

So day after day he was trying to look for the same eyes that caught him but never managed to get any luck till the 4th day when he saw her again! She was with her friends lining up to pay laughing happily. That made his day as that was what he longing for! Just to see her! Trying not to look too obvious, he always tried to just steal a peak and keeping his mouth busy at the same time with his friends.

This continued on for awhile until 1 day he bumped into her alone. Somehow working up his courage, he stops her.

"Hey, which department are you in? How was your day so far?"
"Not bad, am for sales team Jay. Day is boring with never ending training." said Beth with a smile.

Jay suddenly realized what a fool he was as he actually thought that she was his senior! Now that he knew she was actually part of the sales team, he knew he had to do something so that he could have some reason to see her again.

With a very obvious hesitant tone, "Hey mind if I have your number? Since after this we might not see each other, at least we could keep in touch...." Feeling his whole body shaky, and blood starting to rush through the veins, he waited for the "NO" word.

"Sure! Why don't you take mind and I will text you." said Beth. Seeing both exchanging numbers, all of Jay's friends were very jealous of him. They started to tease him even more and that's when his phone went off! Everyone jumped to see the text and started off with a small celebration to see the text from Beth.

That night they text each other and Jay could not hide his joy as he was having trouble sleeping and all. He had no idea that it would only last for day.

The next day, Jay starting his test calls as he was a call center agent, was sitting in his table went he received a text from Beth saying she saw him. So being excited and witty, he replied daring Beth to come over and say Hi to him. Little he thought that she would actually turn up at his table with the rest of his team looking at him!

That was the cue, he thought but as the day went by he realized Beth sounded a little distressed. Worried, he wanted to know what was the reason just to find out that Beth was actually is leaving to Melbourne the next day as that's where she was placed.

A text came in asking him what took him so long to get Beth's number. That was a slap to his conscious and that was not the end of it. He felt he had already wasted precious time which he could have actually used to create good memories.

Then he finds out that Beth was actually married with a daughter of 2 years and half! That broke his heart but he decided to just let everything go by the flow itself so he kept it within himself. He was dying to have some time with Beth. He ended his shift 5 hours earlier but decided to wait till Beth's done with hers.

It was almost 8pm and they met. He could feel the strong hunch that Beth had fallen for him, but the fact that she was married and all scared him. After having a short conversation, they parted ways with Jay in a very confused state.

That night, Beth called Jay.

"Hey, now that you know tomorrow I am leaving, would you come visit me if I asked you to?"

Jay was waiting for that but he was torn apart with mixed feelings. He wanted so badly to be with Beth but she was someone else's. Yet still thinking that he ain't gonna throw his chance away, he makes a desperate trip to visit Beth.

Seeing her without make up for the 1st time made things harder for Jay. He felt he has met his match finally but should he be doing what he is doing? That was his thought. He wants but he can't. So trying not to waste much time, he decided to take her out instead. So..................

That would be it for now. I believe this is quite long enough that I decided to make it to part posts. =)

And really sorry if I had cut short you guys of excitement guys. Don't worry the best part of the story is yet to come! Trust me!

Psst : Please don't mind those pics. They might not suite the moment for that particular part.

Don't forget to leave your comments guys! Looking forward for it as I would love to improve on my writing skills as I progress.